Learning

Learning to be without you

Learning to believe in the good without you by my side

Nothing matters more than love

Learning from my heartbreak

Learning from the past

Now I`m settling for a life

That I should have settled for long time ago

Having money having lands

But I`ve been there before

Now I know what matters most

But I can`t have it

And I will be alone once more

I know it - the history repeats itself

Although we have feelings for each other

We will go separate ways

Until we meet each once again

In yet another life

P.S. Inspired by a dream. A very special dream.

Love you still

Love you still

Can`t wait for you to come back

Because this is pure love

Respect, care and protection

Of a highest power

Even if I die without you

I`ll meet you again in the next life

I`m sure

I know it sounds crazy

But my beating heart knows the truth

My soul ripples in joy every time you are near

Second chance

 I waited for you to come back

Waited in the forest

The blue dress on you looked amazing

I know it`s your favourite colour

The wind playing with your long dark hair

Chasing you was a pleasure

And I don`t know if it`s true or not

This world provides us with a second chance

I met you again in this life

I won`t let go of you now

Because I deeply love you

Wanted to say - shoulda woulda coulda

Mistaken you are

If you think your misbehaviour will take me down 

Or make me feel bad

Shoulda woulda coulda

I wanted to say

It was about time I blocked you

You should have known to treat me better

You would have been happier

You could have not done any wrongs to me

Just things I wanted to say

I don`t know what I`m searching for.

You are lost too.

Way too lost.

More lost than I am, I think.

This is why it`s hard for you.

It`s going to get even harder, I bet.

Today is the day I start my new life.

A life without you in it.

Nothing compares to that feeling.

I blocked you for the last time.

You are not part of my world anymore.

Feelings

Feelings come across my heart

Coming like a storm

A thousand petals scattered on the ground

Another day is ending yet I can`t

I can`t hold on to a feeling of warmth inside my heart

There`s only darkness

There is only coldness that is left

Rest assured you will suffer too

Every tear I cried

Will hurt you more than hurt me

Because unjustice has come to reign 

And I can`t take no more

Of this persevering hurt inside

Blocked

Like a bird searching for food

Like a man in a desert waiting for rain

I waited for you

I wait for you no more

The hardship now is nothing

Compared to what you put me through

You left me alone

You deserve to be blocked now

That`s why I blocked you

Dear, you are just a mean person

Who deserves nothing good

That`s why I`m saying this with a great relief

I`m glad I did it

I am glad I blocked you