Wanted to say - shoulda woulda coulda

Mistaken you are

If you think your misbehaviour will take me down 

Or make me feel bad

Shoulda woulda coulda

I wanted to say

It was about time I blocked you

You should have known to treat me better

You would have been happier

You could have not done any wrongs to me

Just things I wanted to say

I don`t know what I`m searching for.

You are lost too.

Way too lost.

More lost than I am, I think.

This is why it`s hard for you.

It`s going to get even harder, I bet.

Today is the day I start my new life.

A life without you in it.

Nothing compares to that feeling.

I blocked you for the last time.

You are not part of my world anymore.

Feelings

Feelings come across my heart

Coming like a storm

A thousand petals scattered on the ground

Another day is ending yet I can`t

I can`t hold on to a feeling of warmth inside my heart

There`s only darkness

There is only coldness that is left

Rest assured you will suffer too

Every tear I cried

Will hurt you more than hurt me

Because unjustice has come to reign 

And I can`t take no more

Of this persevering hurt inside

Blocked

Like a bird searching for food

Like a man in a desert waiting for rain

I waited for you

I wait for you no more

The hardship now is nothing

Compared to what you put me through

You left me alone

You deserve to be blocked now

That`s why I blocked you

Dear, you are just a mean person

Who deserves nothing good

That`s why I`m saying this with a great relief

I`m glad I did it

I am glad I blocked you

Disrespect / Deleted

I deleted you

I am glad that I did it

You deserve nothing else

For the disrespect you have shown

For the unanswered messages

I am not invisible you see

I have feelings too

You played it cool 

Until it got clear

You didn`t care and you wanted to hurt me

Измамна красота

Грозотата на една постъпка

Която потъпка

Всичко градено с години за миг

Едно желание за свобода

И една несправедливост

Сега това ще обърка

Умовете на много хора

Понякога думите градят

Понякога унижожават

Как да ги използвам зависи само от мен

Измамна красота

По-добре сама отколкото в лоша компания

Никога не ще бъда каквато бях

Но и няма да се доверя

Отново на една обикновена суета

Freaking idiot

Freaking idiot

Thinking I will be same

Thinking I won`t say a thing

Congratulations

You just earned the prize of being the worst person ever in my life

That`s why you should feel ashamed

God knows if you are even capable of this feeling

You are stupid as hell

I feel as though this was an experiment

And to see if I will live one or take my life afterwards

This is what you did

I officially hate you so much

Even though your claims are that you are not a bad person

Are you even a person

I can`t know

I don`t know

Downfall

I think it is going to be your downfall

I think it`s going to be your demise

That`s why I`m not saying your name out loud

You are a freak

You deserve what it is coming your way

And now that your secret is out 

About that unfortunate night when I got to know you better

Oh I wish I could forget

But alas

I wish I could

You destroyed my sanity with your stupidity

Aren`t you supposed to get together with someone like you only

I have no clue

You think you can make me a slave

But my dreams are bigger than that

Warning others to stay away from the likes of you

The pain caused so far resonates deeply in my soul to this day

You are the evil on Earth

The evil I want no one else to find about

Because you hurt me in ways unforgettable

You took advantage of my naivety and broke my safety

You are to blame for many things happening right now

I thought I could fight alone but I can`t

The downfall spiral is going with full power

The fear of you is now gone

Come and kill me right away

This is what I want to say to you

Because killing me is the only way I can stop warning others

I hate you so much

I hate your kind

The spirits of my ancestors are crying in their graves

Praying for the best revenge

Your kind does all kinds of shameful deeds to people I`m sure

Trying to forget you is not an option

I just can`t take any more of this pain

But I`m alive somehow

It means it`s my mission to fight this feeling

You are to blame, not me

Not I!!!

I won`t be silenced that easily

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Darkness and Light

 Darkness and Light

They are not alike

When you are true

A friend or foe

When it`s time to go

You are leaving with a smile

Light may take a while

But it`s there

Fighting darkness

A sweet caress

Wordly success

Never the same without you

Invisible

 Invisible yet present

Are you an ally or an enemy

I can`t tell

I found out the truth

A secret visitor of the premises of my home

A clear proof I have

Interesting story

Not telling it for glory

Again confused

Again not knowing the entire truth

Finding things I haven`t noticed

I`m not crazy I hope

The voice

I love the way you hate me

I love the way you sedate me

I love the way you are out to get me

I love the way you are about to delete me

I can live now truly

Because I know I am a threat to you

And you want only to destroy me

The voice in my head telling me everything I need

Comforting me and all

(lol)

Good job in making me sick

I`m sick when I think of you

And especially when I see you on the street

What once was weak isn`t weak

Turning my weakness into power you have no idea about

Crazy and odd for letting me live my hybrid life

(lol)

Locked inside a prison

It seems that I`m freer than you today and every day

Because I love with all my heart

Despite your corrupt idea for reality

The reality we are living in

This is why I sing with my fingers on the keyboard

A mess

 A great mess

So many stuff

So little time

To enjoy all

To play with all

To play with you too

I am nothing like you

I enjoy everything I touch

I appreciate it truly

A mess in my head they say

That`s rich and deserves a laugh really

You mess with me, I mess with you

Disappear

Disappear from my broken heart

Once I was yours

Was not that enough

Now you creep into my sleep

Being what I am

And you being who you are

Knowing all and knowing why

I can tell by the way you said She hates me

Oh, no, somehow you know

Can`t do much about amending the situation

That`s why I sleep without a problem

That`s why you can`t

Stalking me out of the blue

Coming to my town to see me

Pathetic

Truly

What you love

I will come into your sleep

Your dreams

I will destroy what you love most

Because you love the enemy

I will come to demand a transgression 

Out of your conforming nature

Because sleep is for the weak

(lol)

Let`s not mistake lack of sleep as a weakness

Now, let`s talk about something that matters really

Friendships that are fake don`t last

But love comes in all forms and shapes to show us life`s good enough

Свободна

 Уж свободна да избира

Свободна, но не съвсем

В затвора всеки ден

В капана на инфлацията и цинизма 

Уж свободна, но никак

И живот в социална изолация

Такава обстановка не се търпи

Безпаричие и безработица

Няма край тази безпътица

Няма край мъката

Transgression

Ugly truth

Beautiful lie

Life is a game to you

May God be with you all

Because evil is lurking near

You shall not become its victim

God has not forsaken us 

We must fight for our rights tough

Against the transgression of our enemies

Against the evil in their mind

Against the stress in their presence

They have ugly souls

Killing you killing me

 Another day, another atrocity

Another one bites the dust

You have taken everything you can from me

You want more I bet

I can give you all my hate

Is this enough for you

I bet it`s not

No shame you have for all you`ve done

No shame and you keep breaking me

Killing you killing me

It`s the only solution

Рециклиране

 080014100 - Телефон за национално "рециклиране" Изобщо не си губете времето с тези. Ако правите ремонт вкъщи и имате нужда от извозване на отпадъци това НЕ са вашите хора. По телефона се направиха на интересни на човек с инвалидност. Не им прави чест. Търсете частни превозвачи или някой друг, който да ви помогне с извозването. Изключително съм разочарована и от отношението на хората в Бюрото по труда, които твърдят, че нямат подходяща работа и да съм си търсила работа сама. Пиша всичко това с прескърбие, защото оцеляването ми е поставено буквално на карта. Всеки, който се опитва да прави нещо добро бива наказван по някакъв начин.

Тежка прокоба

 Тежка прокоба над едно село

 Тежка тегне и до днес

 Молитви трябват и водосвет

 Защото светец го е проклел

Да не се разбират сестри две

Там където има

Да се събират, но да не се разбират никога

И така и до днес

Затова страда челядта в толкова много къщи там навред

Молитви трябват и водосвет

Защото е тежка прокобата

Най-тежка - от светец!

Защото не му дали подслон в селото